Tuesday, March 9, 2010

Please.......

.....Please.

This is the only word that would come to my mind as I struggled to pray last night.

Please.....please.....please, Lord. Let me keep this horse for a little while.

Please, take his pain away.

Please, reach in an fix what is broken in him.

Please, don't take my dreams away.

Please, have mercy on me - and him.

Please.....please.

But the end came at midnight with one last shuttering breath as my beloved horse Major, who I plucked off a racetrack in Pennsylvania, left me forever.

He was only five.

There was nothing else to be done.

I find I can hardly bear the crushing grief.

So please..... please, pray for me as I get through this.

5 comments:

Denise said...

So sad to lose part of your family. You are in my prayers!

Prairie Princess said...

I wish there was a way to erase the pain for you...animals intertwine with our hearts in mysterious ways...

Cry...let it out...breath...and know I'm praying for you...

((hugs))

Sharon said...

Oh Hosanna! I am SO SORRY to hear of your loss. I am praying for the Lord to cmfort you and give you strength. I am sorry.

~Sharon

Susannah Forshey said...

I'm really, really sorry to hear of this....I can't imagine losing 2 in a couple weeks' time, one of them so young! Do you know exactly what it was he was suffering from? Was it unexpected? :( Terribly, terribly sorry, my friend.

Hosanna said...

It was colic. Twisted gut colic; the kind they can only relieve with surgery; which we could not afford; and there was only a %30 chance he would have lived through it anyway.